I walked into the gym for the first time in December 2011 at 266 lbs. It was cold and smelled like the beach, a combination of Pina-colada and suntan lotion, mixed with sweat and plastic. I didn’t want anyone to look at me, so I would only go after 10 pm, sometimes as late as…

Before I get into the recipe, this is not light or diet in any way! There are substitutions you can make to lighten it, but this is bread pudding…it should be warm and decadent! And, incredibly yummy! Ingredients (pudding): 1 French baguette (Think airy and chewy but not as airy as Zipp or Leidenheimer’s) 7…

When I started this blog last year, I wasn’t sure where I wanted it to go. So, as a result, it has taken on many different forms from poetry to recipes to philosophical essays on body image and eating disorders. One thing I did not want to do was turn my blog into the “Me…

“I made you to find me.” – Anne Sexton Through sleep, I feel breathe on my face, warm and salty, and a small tapping on the tip of my nose. “I want mommy hair”; my four year old son is saying, standing in front of me with his jaw slack, a paci suspended from his…

“…intellectual belief without the corollary of emotional roots; feminist power understood in the mind but not known, somehow, in the body.” –Caroline Knapp, Appetites: Why Women Want After my divorce, I slowly and gradually began to shrink. Some of this was conscious and some of it not. Some days I would teach all day on…